Friday, August 14, 2009
The Need to Be Together
I so look forward to the day we go home to Florida. We heard nothing today. Maybe it is good or maybe it is bad. WHO KNOWS..It could mean that they are working on the 2 sentence letter for uscis. It could mean they are not going to do it. WHO KNOWS. In the space between Sandra and I sit. There Hap sits. From some I have to hear "You arent ever coming back, they have you down there and they arent going to let you come home" "What do you look like now? Its been a long time since I've seen you." I must carry on. I miss my family, I very much miss my husband and home. He is trying his best[and doing a great job] of holding things together there and taking good care of my mom.[she is 83 and quite a character] I am here being a mother to a girl who only knows what a dad is. I am trying to show her what a mother is. I just had to answer the question I have answered 20 times in the last 5 weeks,"When is Dad coming" with the response,"I dont know, we are waiting on papers.He will have to sign papers soon. If he comes and the papers arent ready and then returns home and gets the call to come right back it cost alot of money." There is also a chance ,to save time, that we will fly to Mexico City. More money..I just have to stop thinking sometimes. Alot of the time. I just sink into the zone of the spirit, the only thing that gives me peace. We so need to be together as a family. She needs her Dad, the love she can really relate too. She relates to me and has bonded with me but she needs to see us[Hap and I] work as a unit of one. Our team. The family. I am praying soon that things will start to wind up. I so need my home. I pray that GOD will let us come home soon. That he will continue to give me the strength I need to do this. He is faithful and has been faithful all this time. I can honestly give GOD ALL the glory for what is going on. I would not have made it this far had if not be for the strength and faith he gives me. All I do when things are tough is turn to GOD and turn and look at Sandra...Can you tell today has been alittle hard..I just read back over this and I feel like I have probably written most of this before. Sorry for the repeat but it is the emotions that flow.. Give ear to my prayer, O GOD, and hide not yourself from my plea for mercy! Attend to me, and answer me; I am restless in my complaint and I moan...But I call to GOD, and the LORD will save me. Evening and morning and at noon I utter my complaint and moan, and he hears my voice. Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved. I will trust in you...
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I just want to remind you that we are praying for you. (or "y'all", why doesn't English have a proper second person plural?) I keep being reminded of the almost exactly a year that it took of us being apart to get Sharol's papers to come to the states, even though we had been married long enough to raise two children to the point that the youngest was in high school. Governments are so good at messing lives up. And now the U.S. wants to mess with health care. No, wait, I don't want to get started on that here. But the point is that sometimes we have to go through things that push us past where we thought our breaking points were. And come to think of it, possibly past where they actually are, for the Master Mechanic does some of his best work with broken tools. I hope it helps to know that you (all) are in the minds and prayers of many of His people. Michael
ReplyDeleteSharon,
ReplyDeleteI've been reading your blog for several weeks. It's one of the first things I do when I wake up my computer every morning. All things end and this will too. We hope and pray that you will be able to come home soon. We look forward to your return and meeting Sandra.
Debbie