Always Find Some Good

Even on days like today I look for the good. GOD is always doing his plan and there is always good if you open your eyes. I have had a hard 36 or so hours..The emotions wanting to kick in..Tears wanting to flow..But our first resolution is back and we hope after therapy tomorrow to go and get it and see what the next step is.Guess I will go ahead and ask what time they are thinking. Also the papers are leaving USCIS and heading for NVC[national visa center]in the next day or so.Then there is at least another 3 weeks or more to finish stateside stuff..There is always good. GODS good. Our neighbors, David and Ale and thier kids returned today from over a month long vacation. We had wondered when they left if we would see each other again and we have..It is really nice to have neighbors back on both sides again. Sandra and I were the only ones here almost the last month. I never felt unsafe but it is nice to have the activity. I am praying that GOD will grant us favor with the rest of the adoption. I am having more hard times with homesickness,lonelyness, language, culture, etc. I literally feel stripped to nothing. I do well for awhile and then a flood comes over me..But there I must remember GOD is showing what Sandra will feel when in Florida. Tho the seperation from a husaband of 30 years will not play a factor for her...I was reading Psalms 69 today.
Save me,O GOD! For the waters have come up to my neck.
I sink in deep mire, where there is no foothold;and the flood sweeps over me.
I am weary with my crying out; my throat is parched. My eyes grow dim with waiting for my GOD.
THen I skipped to verse 13
But as for me, my prayer is to you, O LORD.
At an acceptable time, O GOD, in the abundance of your steadfast love answer me in your saving faithfulness.
Deliver me from sinking in the mire;
Then to verse 16 Answer me, O LORD, for your steadfast love is good; according to your abundant mercy, turn to me.
Hide not your face from your servant, for I am in distress, make hast to answer me.Draw near to my soul, redeem me;
I have found psalms really gives me the peace and presents of the LORD with me. David could cry out the thoughts of his heart. I caught myself thinking, How dare I ask for more.He has given us a daughter,health,etc.. But I know he wants me to tell him all of my heart..I am not strong and unshaken..Only GOD is that, I must rely on Christ to help me when I start to feel overwhelmed. Today I call to you LORD, Come to me and help me..Let me feel your wings over me..Because I KNOW that only you can satisfy my soul.
I miss and love you more today than yesterday. I so thank GOD for you and all you do.