Confused and Wondering

Family life is good...Life in general is great...Just confused and wondering what people are really about...I watch facebook...I see posts from people who say I am a christian...but I see words of the world...No faith in our GOD..Giving satan all the ammo he needs to just come on into their lives and destroy it...I look around and see people who are selfish...I see people who lie...I listen to the lies they tell me and wonder how wrong am I to just let the lie go...If I say something is that being judgemental?..If I post something responding to commit they make...Is that being judgemental?..What has happened to people really walking the walk? I KNOW that I make many mistakes daily...I repeatedly ask for his forgiveness...But when I see people not make an effort to try and live by what he has asked us to do..but yet still say LORD LORD...????????????????????? I wonder where all the different church come from...How far have we really come from the truth...???I wonder where are the scrolls and words from old that Jesus studied from and the prophets of old??I wonder if we have just become people with MANY words...and little faith and trust?? I see people letting leaky roofs...and really little worries tear them down...What is going to happen when the really hard times come...???? Proverbs says somewhere that a wise person says little...but a fool talks on...As I get older I really am starting to see the wisdom in that...We have an excuse for everything...DOES GOD BELIEVE THAT???? Please LORD GOD , forgive me for my thoughts...reveal to me what you REALLY what from us...Guide me in all TRUTH..Help me to see through the words of just man and let the spirit guide me in truth...Help me to love all people without being judgemental...Let me know how you want me to handle lies and deceptions that I see and hear people do...Keep my mouth shut until your spirit tells me what to say..and then let me have the courage to say or do whatever it might be

Feeling VERY BLESSED

I feel so blessed that I just needed to write it down..My job is the best ever...and so GOD guided...I KNOW that he has been involved in this since long before it played out in the physical world..When something new comes up there he is showing me he is leading the way..I look all around and see suffering...I am sure if I were to look at my own life in the earthly way I would see suffering but I choose to see the good blessings that I have every day. Life is good...Sure we have troubles..sickness..pain...BUT I feel and know that my GOD is there with me...His plan is not seen with human eyes...But ohhh what a glorious plan he has...and if we just hold tight to him...and take the ride with faith...We will one day see this plan play out in his glorious way...The family is doing wonderful. Sure there are troubles...BUT again...GOD is leading the way.. FOcus on him...See him...Trust him...and life can be an adventure...I am so thankful for my time in Mexico..I did learn just to hold tight...GOD will carry us through...

I am Back

I am so sorry that I have not been writing...I really do miss it...THings are great...Sandra is doing soooo good...Other than not wanting to speak english...We are so blessed to have a great daughter..She just doesnt want to speak english..I think her wanting to be perfect is the main reason..But we just keep telling her that no one is perfect and pray that she will come around...Other than that what a great kid...We are so blessed by GOD to have two great kids...Our son is doing well also...He seems to be maturing each day...He and his wife are talking about moving to Hawaii is Dec...I do not think it is a good idea but it is their lives...They both are BIG dreamers...and I know that dreams sometimes do come true...I will just keep praying..My mom is doing very well other than hurting her back two weeks ago...Pulled muscles we think...If she does not see some real improvement this week I am going to take her to the Medical doctor...We have been to her chiropractor...I START WORK ON MONDAY...Can you believe it...I havent worked out of the family mobile home park in 20 years and two weeks ago I was asked to interview with a company called Falcone out of Boca Raton...I was hired as a consultant for security and have hired 4 guys to work and be security for a closed 70 acre resort in Kississimmee and a 330 unit closed hotel also in Kississimmee...I manage the team of 4 men...Deal with law enforcement when needed and keep my boss happy by not making him have to deal with some matters...He is the big wig dealing in real estate..I am really happy and looking forward to the guys getting started on Monday...I actually started two weeks ago getting all the shirts and logos and signs and etc...I am really feeling and knowing how blessed we are for this to have come along when it did...I have been praying for a couple of years for the perfect job to come along...I really thought it was just a dream too...Like my son likes to dream...But GOD really came thru on this one...He does provide...We just have to trust...Things have been very very tight for a while...But just when it looks like something might not happen...a bill might not get paid something has always come through...THANK YOU GOD for being so good to us...::He is faithfully to us always..That is one thing that I did learn on my adventure to Juarez...To fully trust GOD with everything in our life...without the stress and worry that the world gets...or that I use to get...He will provide for our every need...We just have to keep looking to him..trusting him...casting all of cares on him...NOT WORRYING>>>>Alot of the time we just think that we NEED something when really it is just a want...We as americans have alot of wants...with very few needs....Carlos is doing ok...He has days of struggle..when he wonders why him...He is slowing getting stronger...His sister and mother are so faithful to him..and they are all so faithful to GOD...THEY SO TRUST JESUS...I look around and wonder how people can get by with out GOD>...I wlll always trust him..I am SO THANKFUL for his son that he sent to save us...Us that had no hope till he came...I am not a jew so without Jesus I had no hope...anyway if anyone still reads this please remember Carlos,Alma and Monica is your prayers...I know that they trust our Lord too....well there it is..some writing for the first time in a few months...It felt good too...

Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays to all...Boy have things been very very crazy..My mom spent alittle over a week in the hospital with heart failure...she had her pacemaker upgraded and has been home since Saturday..I am her nurse with a phone instead of a button..the first few days were alittle hectic but we are balancing out...She has home health care starting and she actually cooked herself oatmeal this morning...She seems to be feeling stronger each day...Praise GOD...We are going to have christmas dinner here at our house and Sandra and I have been cleaning and we will start the cooking tomorrow...We are hopeing to go to North Florida to see Hap's family next week if I can figure out how to take care of mom...I am praying that one of the ladys that stayed with her when she first came home from her long hospital rehab stay will come and help out..She just lives around the corner here and mom just needs someone to come and check on her 3 or 4 times aday and cook one main meal...She does breakfast and can do her lunch herself...But I want to make sure there is someone passing thru at least 3 times aday...GOD willing this will work out...I feel so blessed to have my family...Carlos is home for the hospital...He still does not speak..He has a feeding tube in his nose??? They tried him on some baby food today and it was a success...He is getting alittle more movement in his arms and legs...He does still understand english and recognized a friend who called but raising a hand to let his sister know he knew this man...He will SOOOOO testifiy the name of the LORD in anyway he can...With or without words..But we are praying that he will recover completely...In GOD's time...anyway...BLESSINGS to all...I hope you feel the joy of this season...With your families...May GOD bless the next year for you and may we all continue to bring glory to his name....

Happy Holidays

Sorry again, That I havent written in awhile..My mom had to go back to the hospital..Heart failure..They upgraded her pacemaker and that is about all they can do..She is home as of yesterday and doing pretty good..Sandra is doing very well..I think I can see alittle homesickness for Juarez in her..But we talk about it and I figure this is normal..We did some christmas shopping together yesterday..She doesnt like to shop either..Her and I have ALOT in common..We did what we needed to do and got out of there...Now to get the house and the food and the wrapping and the etc......You know the line..We normally do a christmas eve gathering for the extended family but I just dont know if I can do it this year...I am very tired and I always do christmas dinner here at our house...I think that our special day will over ride the other this year..I spoke to a cousin and we are going to try and do the extended gathering after christmas on a sunday just as a family day...They have a new member,great grandson,to their family and we have Sandra. So soon we will have that gathering...I am trying to remember all that is happening and it is hard...Carlos continues to improve and amaze each day...He is not talking but with each day there is more movement in his arms and legs...He has a feeding tube but he has begun to swallow..Who knows..only GOD...He is able to let you know that he understands you by a hand raise...He remembers english and us..Another friend called and had his sister hold the phone up to his ear and he would raise his hand in understanding and said,by the hand,that he knew who this friend was...GOD IS GOOD..as carlos would say...and when his sister says praise GOD for what he has done she said carlos raises his hand in the air and holds it there...THANK YOU LORD...
Well I wanted to say Happy Holidays to all and I pray it is blessed and joyous for all...

Life

Well life has been quite.....????..It has been different this week...I have manage to purge my house and garage..I started when we arrived home from Mexico..I only have the upstairs bedroom and file cabinet to do..But have decided to wait until after Christmas for that...I feels so good to know we have what we need...and not much else..Stuff that I know we will use..I want to enjoy this Christmas and try not to get into the mad rush that seems to happen this time of year...Sandra is doing well..Except...We were involved in an accident this week that left a 14 year old boy dead...I had just pick Sandra up from school and was about a mile from the school when I saw a boy poke his head out from behind a verizon work truck..He had time to cross in front of me...I also let off the gas a little and at the same time there was a car behind me ,with more students from the school in it, that decided to pass me..Just as the boy made it across my lane and starting into the next lane the car passing me realized it but it was to late...The boy on foot was hit..The other boys in car then hit a telephone pole...We,by the grace of GOD were able to miss the boy on foot as he flew and the car, that after hitting the pole turned sideways in the road...The boy was airlifted to Tampa General but it was said he died in route...I feel so ???? for the family of the boy hit...and for the boys in the car that hit him...This was such a terrible terrrible ACCIDENT...It was just an accident..But Sandra had night mares that night and was unable to sleep..Greif counselors were at the school yesterday and called me in also..I am following up with a greif center here in Auburndale to make sure Sandra deals with this healthy...Please pray for both of these families and ours as well...My mom is doing good..We are getting ready to head to the doctor with her...Carlos was taken off life support last night and the family has placed him in GOD's hands...He still has not awaken since the first surgery a couple of weeks ago..I think...Time has blurred here lately..I am so thankful for a powerful GOD who can carry us through so much in our life time...As long as we cling to him.......

Start to a New Week

We had a good weekend..Sandra had school Saturday and we had planned on going to Tampa to Lowry Park but the weather changed that..We waited until yesterday morning and headed out early and had a good day there..Weather was much better..She has school today and we have our first parent meeting with her Latinos in Action class tonight...We are all decorated for christmas and my mom too..Now to start what little shopping for that..Sandra is so easy to buy for..She isnt to americanized yet to where it is hard or costly..and if possible we are going to try and keep it that way..We tried that with our son but the world didnt help and we are praying that GOD will help with this...Carlos is not doing good..He had to have another surgery yesterday..He has a blood clot. The doctors found and took care of it but he had to be put on life support...They will check this morning and see if anything has changed..GOD has work for Carlos,I have no doubt..I just dont know if it is here on Earth on with our LORD in heaven...I except which ever...I feel it an honor to know Carlos and to have spent the time with him that I have...I pray that there will be more time to spend together...
I started cleaning out everything when I arrived home..I am so close to being finished with the downstairs I could dance...It feels so good to get rid of THINGS you dont need...I feel a freedom to enjoy life more without thinking you have to dust and clean because you have so much STUFF...Now to see if I can get my mom to do the same...After New Years me and a couple of friends are going to start on her old house and try and clean it up and out so that we can rent it out...WHAT A JOB...She has never throw anything away and gets very upset with me if I mention it...For someone who says they have no memory left..she sure can remember stuff she hasnt seen for 5 years that are still over in the old house..Stuff with no purpose..just stuff...So we shall see how that goes in the new year....I am thankful for my family and for all that GOD does for us...I am happy to serve an amazing LORD...