Holding On

I am holding on, to a very thin thread today. Another one of those days that I know I am suppose to be hearing something but this buzz in my head seems to deafen me. I have waited all week to hear if the paper for her visa has been sent. I have heard nothing. I think that the despair is trying to take over. I NEED to be home. WE need to be home. Starting the life that we have worked so hard to get too. But I am still here. Dealing with issues that would not have happened had I been home. Finding out that I am dealing with more people that cannot understand the word "trust". Something I have found frequently in this culture. Maybe I just get around the wrong people. Maybe GOD puts me with them for a reason and my emotions are blocking what I should hear. But I KNOW that GOD is faithful. I know in his time I will be home. I am trying to see if what I am dealing with is just me being on the brink of BURNT OUT, or if it is selfish emotions, or if it is human logic . PRAYER will be my only answer..and I wait for that also. PLEASE keep US in your prayers. I am going to make it thru this I know. By the grace of GOD and with his strength..I SO need him to carry me right now. I did recieve word about going to Mexico City when the time comes for her passport. Not the best news..$80 anight lodging. Food. Airline flights $1000. and $500 for our guide to help to do the work..We are stretched now..But at this point my thoughts tell me anything is worth getting to Florida as quick as possible. Our daughter needs to start this new life we have talked about and that was suppose to have happened already. Please excuse my emotions today. I need GOD to come and give me the comfort that only he can give. I have abandon my home, family[son,grandson,mom], and life. Sandra is well worth it but where is this going to end. On facebook today I wrote some of my journal from being here in Mexico and it went !!!!!!?$$??!!??!?$?????????????$!!????????!??????????$$??!?????????$$?????!!!$$?????????????????????????$$!!!!..__-??!$$$?????!????!???????!????????!$??????!!?????????????$$???? That just about covers each day. Each mark represents a day. ........................I just got a message from GOD..I feel so humbled suddenly and ashamed of what I have written....Sandra just came up to me out of nowhere and hugged me tight. That is only the 2nd or 3td time this has happened since I have been here..I must shut my mind and fingers right now..And thank GOD for the sign...I SO needed that...THANK YOU LORD for the reminder of what we are doing..and that my pain will end in your glory...