Struggling

It has been a day of struggles..I could feel them starting a few days ago and have tried to deny them. But to confess them is hard. I am weak and only the strength of the LORD is carrying me now. I need him to just let me know I am OK. That everything is going to be OK. Deep inside I know that everything is fine and that GOD is in control but these emotions can be very hard..I am human and most of my life I have found other ways to deal with things.. For the first time I am trusting everything in me to GOD. I am working to finish things here and return home. It is getting harder to get through each day..There is only so much you can go and do. There is only so much you can do in a 2 room house. I know if I am struggling that Sandra is too. We are trying to have a routine and live a normal life but it is not normal. She is studing and understanding english better each day. But there is only so much english to study in a day.So much spanish for me to study in a day. I read alot but there is only so much of that to do in a day. I know all this will work itself out. I just long to get back to home and really show our daughter what a family does. I have had to put limits on her computer time. But in the back of my mind WHY??? What else is there for her to do..Watch TV?? Clean house??[Our place is spotless]Clean the van? Chat with me?? [Please dont think I am losing my mind, I am just expressing feelings.] So we make it through another day. I am thankful that our papers are moving Stateside. I just pray that every hand that touches any of our papers will feel the power of the spirit and swiftly pass them on toward the end. Our agency asked us to get a paper with alittle more detail of how we met Sandra and last week[friday]when we ask DIF[Mexico childrens services]for it they said we needed to put it in writing. So today Carlos printed it out and we took it to DIF and they said that they had put that in the papers they had given us and that if uscis wanted more they needed to request it. Now tomorrow that could change and they could call with the info..So the story with DIF continues. They are suppose to come for a house inspection in the morning. So we will see how that goes. We will make it I know. Just a day by day stepping in Faith towards the end. Please pray for us. All of us,Hap,Sharon and Sandra. Know I am ok just writing the feelings for the day. I love you my husband,[I know he reads this]. We know that this is for a time. That GOD is growing me and Hap each day. When the time is right we will head to Florida to really get started at being a family. Anyway, I am strong in spirit, only with the strength of GOD and I know that all will work out for his glory..Please pray with us that we will be able to go home soon and for GOD's grace to carry our papers thru...