Time and Time Again

Nothing positive today..Just an e-mail from DIF [mexico child services] saying that the adoption file is in Chihuahua and she hopes it will be back by the end of the month. The embassy didnt call. They are waiting to hear from DIF so they can work on her visa. We are trying to adjust for another possible 3 weeks or so..We cant go to Mexico City until the adoption file is back..So please pray again with us for speed with these papers..I am in DISBELIEF over all of this..But when I look around it is real...Hap did not take this any better than me..I had to go for a long walk..He just needs some time..The only thing that I can do is look at Sandra and know it is worth this..and pray that GOD will give us peace..and help us deal with the emotions again..Again...That seems to be a word that I use or think alot..But I know we will make it thru it...It is just unbelievable..SO...How was your day??? Feels like what I should be saying..Just rambling thoughts going thru my head...Faith came over tonight and we are watching a movie..I started this blog earlier but the emotions havent changed much..I called tonight to check on Carlos and things are still not much better..He said ???Maybe a little???? I spoke to his sister and she said that it is not a medicine that he needs it is a procedure..Called Gama Knife..Some sort of laser...She said that the doctor here said that there are spots that "might" have changed some since his surgery a couple of years ago..He needs some serious prayer..I know that back when he worked for numerous ministrys that it was one group that he worked with alot out of Colorado that helped him with his surgery.[brain].I am still trying to gather facts so I am sorry I am so vague..This really has been another struggle in my heart. Carlos has been a very big help to us..and a wonderful friend...Please also pray for him and his family during this time...Well we now have another visitor..a puppy that was with one of our neighbors friends..He was chained up to the neighbors vehicle and it started to rain and Sandra got real concerned..She went to tell his owner who is visiting next door and I told her the pup could come on in out of the rain and hang out..The owner stepped out and said that he would only be another 15 minutes...Our neighbors wife has very bad allergies so I know that the dog would not be welcome in their house...Wish we had asked its name.. anyway...I sure hope I can feel better tomorrow...I love you very much my husband...Please know that I am ok..I do miss you but I know everything is ok..We have come along way and GOD has lead us this far...Who are we to do anything else but follow.....We will be together soon..Thank you for being there for my mom..and holding our home together there...I LOVE YOU....